i love mu dad 🫶🏽

also i KNOW MY OPINION AB HIM CHANGES LIKE TWICE A MONTH SHUSH

hes trying 🤷‍♀️

somethingsomethingsomething DONT YOU GIVE ME UP SOMETHING SOMETHING SOMETHING SOMETHINGAAAYEAHHH ONLY U MY GIRL

idk whatbits called

like the good colleges in oregon are rlly high acceptance rate and i need to get into a school w alow acceptance rate to prove to the world that im actually smart

BUT ALSO

YALE

i rlly wanna get into like criminal studies blah blah blah or wtv and they supposedly have a good psycology program (i have no ifea if thats true someone told me that)

idk bc like its alwats been “oh font worry ab college thats not for awhile” BUT NOW I LIKE HAVE TO WORRY AB COLLEGE YK

and not goingn to college just like isnt an option 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️ not inly would i be the first person in my immediate family but ALSO my mom would torally disown me if i didnt go

idk where i wanba live when im older bc part of me would wanna move back home but also part of me wants to live in orwgon but also part of me wants to live somewhere not in america but also i wanna live in like oceanside or somehwere w a good latino community bc my county is white and conservative and gross and i always feel so like connected to my culture and stuff when i go to southern california bc literally wverhonr there is latino or at least a poc and idk its just so comforting if that makes sense

torally off topic BUT MY SPANISH TWACHER IS SO DAMN MEAN

she was doing rhis thing where she like adked random pol wuestions in spanish and we had to respond and she said qué tal to me but i thought she said qué pasa bc she had just asked someone else that idk and so i said nada in response AND SHE GOT LIKE SO PISSED

she was like “okay guys 😒😒 we’re learnijg like FOUR phrases right now this really shouldnt be that hard 😐😐 ive given you all the answers idk what you guys want from me blah blah blah” LIKE

AND IRS LIKE SHES HAD IT OUT FOR ME EVER SUNCE I TOOD HER I DONT SPEAK SPANISH FLUENTLY

also she only really gets mad at latino kids when we get smth weong

SHES SO LIKE WEIRD AB RACE TOO LIKE IDK

we were talking ab cultural differences and idek what she said but she said smth ab asian cultures and she said in the most CONDESCENDING TONE EVER “we have to remember that theyre feom a different culture and thats acceptable for them even if its not for us 💢💢❤️🤍😂👎💢🤷‍♀️🫶🏽😂🤔❤️👎😭🪺♨️😐”

like idek how to describe it but the way she said it was so idek

i hate her sm BUT the ppl in my spanish class are cool so it makes up for it ig

likw theres this guy i sit behind and i think hes like an upperclassman BUT HES SO NICE and were both mexican but neither of us speak spanish very well so idk it just feels very not condescending when i talk to him

AND THERES THIS GIRL THAT IM LIKE HALF IN LOVE WITH OH MYYYY

shes in so many of my classes and shes so sweet and i sat behind her until the teacher moved me 😒 but she was so helpful and she kinda reminded me of my aunt idk 🤷‍♀️

ANDAND

ok this is turning into me talking ab all my mini hallway crushes

theres thus orher girl who isnt in sny of my classes but i know shes a freshman bc she was at the freshman orientation and i have literally never spoken to her i dont think she knows i exist hut shes SO. PRETTY LIKE

SHE ALWATS WEARS THE BEST CLOTHES AND LIKE

yk when people are like grungey but make it look like effortless and put together THATS HER

shes short and she has longlonglong like bleached ish braids ifywim and she was in my drama club last year but i didn’t recognize her bc she cane like once or twice i think and she always wore a mask and i never like talked to her or anythunf BUT YEAH

shes like kinda talk ish and has dyed black hair and her voice is so omg

ok so theres rhus boy in my drama class and hes so like omg he has long like curly hair ykyk and he is so like pretty AND HES IN A BAND AND HIS FI BC ERNAILS ARE PAINTED BLACK and idk thats just really idk

BUT

hes a senior

which is so

not okay

like

😐

AND HE IS THE ONLY LIKE GUY AR MY SCHOOL WHOS NOT A TORAL DOUCHEBAG OR NOT MY TYPE 😐

i wanttrr another popcicle but i dont wanna get up #struggling