hell yeah i fucking did because you were and always will be worth it. you see, i broke my rules for you and now you're gone. even though i regret it sometimes, i would have done it a thousand times over again even if it hurts me in the end.
It isn't fair when you know a simple thought from them could rearrange you. All that remains is the hope that somewhere along the way you discarded a stronger more vivacious version of yourself. A fragment to be called upon when you have nothing left.