Day 16 - Releasing of the due date balloons. Hard day, mixed emotions all around.

Day 16 - Releasing of the due date balloons. Hard day, mixed emotions all around.

Day 5 - Healing ink; these matching tattoos in Elder Futhark rune alphabet spell love, other meanings for the runes are water(the healing power of renewal), home, joy/comfort, ideal marriage/partnership.

these matching tattoos in Elder Futhark rune alphabet spell love, other meanings for the runes are water(the healing power of renewal), home, joy/comfort, ideal marriage/partnership.

This may not be the best board, but my anxiety, grief and depression have been getting the best of me.

Wake Duncan with thy knocking. I would thou couldst. Here Macbeth wishes he never did the crime and hopes on Duncan waking up from the death

Day 19 - This was my project for remembering the loss. I made a charm remembrance bracelet with hemp knotwork. Thanks to some friends in the local community for helping acquire some of the materials. The center stone represents our first absent baby and the stones on either side of it represent our second.

Turquoise and onyx on the outside for Baby Snowdrop and a beautiful garnet for Baby Larkspur. The wonderful people of Bisbee helped make this bracelet and it feels amazing to live in such a place.

Day 18 - Our family, for now.

Day Your Family Portrait. My family, all 4 of us.

Day 6 - Of course, I know it was technically more involved for my wife, she dealt with the physical as well as the emotional. Thankfully I didn't hear this from many, but nothing is worse than someone trying to "help" while actually invalidating your pain. Miscarriage is hard for dad hopefuls too.

Day 6 - Of course, I know it was technically more involved for my wife, she dealt with the physical as well as the emotional. Thankfully I didn't hear this from many, but nothing is worse than someone trying to "help" while actually invalidating your pain. Miscarriage is hard for dad hopefuls too.

Day 8. Jewelry. I have none.

Capture Your Grief this October 2012 for Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Month

Day 17 - On the due date of our first loss, preparing balloons for release, I can't remember everything I wrote, but I think that's the point.

Day 17 - On the due date of our first loss, preparing balloons for release, I can't remember everything I wrote, but I think that's the point.

Day 15 - Due to the timing vs that of the original project, this is not a wave of light but rather a solitary flicker. Still, a candle lit for my missing ones.

Day 15 - Due to the timing vs that of the original project, this is not a wave of light but rather a solitary flicker. Still, a candle lit for my missing ones.

Day 14 -  This was supposed to be community, but I never really felt I had that. Sam was and is my community. I chose instead to share a photo that expressed one of the strongest feelings I experienced during the event of the last year. This is despair. Screaming on the inside. Broken, introverted pain, loneliness without cause. The losses suffered so hard to fathom yet so obvious at the same time. This was my first time dealing with the grief of loss, true loss,

Hilarious Sex Facts You Didn't Know In ancient Greece large penises were considered gross. As far as they were concerned, the smaller your business the better -- that's why many Greek statues have itty bitty marble junk.

Day 13 - I don't know that I have believed in signs for a long time. I do believe the universe is a big place and we are just tiny amoebas in the universe's perspective. No more important than a speck of dust floating by our face might be to us. With time, hopefully my vision will become unclouded and I will be able to see clearly again, until then I will need to deal with a tainted reality.

This picture of the Whirlpool Galaxy, also known as won top honors in the Deep Space category and the overall competition for 2012 Astronomy Photographer of the Year. The picture was entered by British-Australian photographer Martin Pugh.

Day 12 - One of the things that pulled me out of the misery, brewing. The smell of grains, hops, even yeast. The welcome distraction. One of the few good things that came of the tragedy.

Day 12 - One of the things that pulled me out of the misery, brewing. The smell of grains, hops, even yeast. The welcome distraction. One of the few good things that came of the tragedy.

Day 11 -  The people, friends and family, who were there for me the most.  And old friend, Justin who contacted me with his empathy. Our friend and doula who was supportive and there for us at the hospital the first time. My mom who called and checked in on me, Oma who would have been there had she been able. Eric who helped me get out of the house and find new distractions. And last, but the opposite of least my beautiful, loving, supportive and huge hearted wife.

Day 11 - The people, friends and family, who were there for me the most. And old friend, Justin who contacted me with his empathy. Our friend and doula who was supportive and there for us at the hospital the first time. My mom who called and checked in on me, Oma who would have been there had she been able. Eric who helped me get out of the house and find new distractions. And last, but the opposite of least my beautiful, loving, supportive and huge hearted wife.

Day 10 - Sometimes asking for peace is the hardest part. The universe gives, but it doesn't always give as much as we think it should. I can not think of two more beautiful symbols even is they have taken on such a somber meaning.

Day 10 - Sometimes asking for peace is the hardest part. The universe gives, but it doesn't always give as much as we think it should. I can not think of two more beautiful symbols even is they have taken on such a somber meaning.

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