Capture my grief - On the road to healing

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This may not be the best board, but my anxiety, grief and depression have been getting the best of me.

This may not be the best board, but my anxiety, grief and depression have been getting the best of me.

In between - Sometimes it's just sadness, sometimes it's just a broken heart, nothing sadder that the tears of a child. Never having gotten to have a child of our own makes me quite sad, but that's the hand we were dealt. I just want to cry sometimes, but that can be the hardest step of all. I hold back all too often. I miss the over emotional, always ready to express version of myself, but sadly I am not backward compatible. Sometimes I feel like a jerk for failing to properly express…

In between - Sometimes it's just sadness, sometimes it's just a broken heart, nothing sadder that the tears of a child. Never having gotten to have a child of our own makes me quite sad, but that's the hand we were dealt. I just want to cry sometimes, but that can be the hardest step of all. I hold back all too often. I miss the over emotional, always ready to express version of myself, but sadly I am not backward compatible. Sometimes I feel like a jerk for failing to properly express…

Day 19 - This was my project for remembering the loss. I made a charm remembrance bracelet with hemp knotwork. Thanks to some friends in the local community for helping acquire some of the materials. The center stone represents our first absent baby and the stones on either side of it represent our second.

Day 19 - This was my project for remembering the loss. I made a charm remembrance bracelet with hemp knotwork. Thanks to some friends in the local community for helping acquire some of the materials. The center stone represents our first absent baby and the stones on either side of it represent our second.

Day 18 - Our family, for now.

Day 18 - Our family, for now.

Day 17 - On the due date of our first loss, preparing balloons for release, I can't remember everything I wrote, but I think that's the point.

Day 17 - On the due date of our first loss, preparing balloons for release, I can't remember everything I wrote, but I think that's the point.

Day 16 - Releasing of the due date balloons. Hard day, mixed emotions all around.

Day 16 - Releasing of the due date balloons. Hard day, mixed emotions all around.

Day 15 - Due to the timing vs that of the original project, this is not a wave of light but rather a solitary flicker. Still, a candle lit for my missing ones.

Day 15 - Due to the timing vs that of the original project, this is not a wave of light but rather a solitary flicker. Still, a candle lit for my missing ones.

Day 14 -  This was supposed to be community, but I never really felt I had that. Sam was and is my community. I chose instead to share a photo that expressed one of the strongest feelings I experienced during the event of the last year. This is despair. Screaming on the inside. Broken, introverted pain, loneliness without cause. The losses suffered so hard to fathom yet so obvious at the same time. This was my first time dealing with the grief of loss, true loss,

Day 14 - This was supposed to be community, but I never really felt I had that. Sam was and is my community. I chose instead to share a photo that expressed one of the strongest feelings I experienced during the event of the last year. This is despair. Screaming on the inside. Broken, introverted pain, loneliness without cause. The losses suffered so hard to fathom yet so obvious at the same time. This was my first time dealing with the grief of loss, true loss,

Day 13 - I don't know that I have believed in signs for a long time. I do believe the universe is a big place and we are just tiny amoebas in the universe's perspective. No more important than a speck of dust floating by our face might be to us. With time, hopefully my vision will become unclouded and I will be able to see clearly again, until then I will need to deal with a tainted reality.

Day 13 - I don't know that I have believed in signs for a long time. I do believe the universe is a big place and we are just tiny amoebas in the universe's perspective. No more important than a speck of dust floating by our face might be to us. With time, hopefully my vision will become unclouded and I will be able to see clearly again, until then I will need to deal with a tainted reality.

Day 12 - One of the things that pulled me out of the misery, brewing. The smell of grains, hops, even yeast. The welcome distraction. One of the few good things that came of the tragedy.

Day 12 - One of the things that pulled me out of the misery, brewing. The smell of grains, hops, even yeast. The welcome distraction. One of the few good things that came of the tragedy.

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