I spent so much time trying to forget you. In years I understood that I will never forget you but that doesn't mean I have to be in love with you. When I finally understood that, I moved on. :) wise words of another pinner
It hurts, no one can understand how you really feel. We hide our pain, put on a brace face and carry on. Being strong is hard especially for long periods of time, coping on your own. I feel the pain of others, I really do.
'I'm drowning and you're standing three feet away screaming "learn how to swim! - this is how being depressive must feel like. Horrible feeling for the screaming person as well - I know what I'm talking about.
I miss the girl that made everyone happy and didn't self-harm, wasn't suicidal. I miss the girl that had tons of friends. I miss the girl that didn't need cheering up because she was always happy. I miss the girl who used to be me.
She's learned to hold all her feelings inside until late at night, and cover her mouth with her hand so no one hears her. She's perfected her fake smile. And she's been taught - oh so painfully to build her walls up high, to keep everyone out.
Promise me you will not spend so much time treading water and trying to keep your head above the waves that you forget, truly forget, how much you have always loved to swim. Tyler Knott Gregson thanks for the inspiration